Last year I sorta realized something...that I was never truly happy with presents that people give me...even though some people might say "it's the thought that counts.." I couldn't reconcile that....and my primary love language is gifts (people whose love language is gifts are supposed to be happy when they receive gifts..!!) Somehow there seemed to be a leak in my love tank and that some of the love would seep out and I would never be satisfied...
At that time I was rather tanned and the color of the rose gold pendant just melted into my skin and it was also a tad short...it looked gorgeous on my friend though..she's slim and fair (exactly like what I wished to be actually! Even now..) and I was really upset.. with the gift and with my friend..cos it was unflattering on me and highlighted the things that I wanted to be but wasn't.....we ended up going back to the shop to purchase a longer necklace which was two inches longer but cost a hundred dollars more (which I was sorta jumping up and down at how expensive it was..) and I tried to rectify the situation by telling my friend how much I loved the design of the pendant (I do..) and how the straight vertical line represents God's truth and the curvy diamond horizontal line represents God's grace and mercy. But I think I must have traumatized my friend a fair bit cos she never did get me another gift like that and would usually just get me vouchers..
Ironically now a decade later, the cross pendent is one of my favourite pieces of jewelry and I love it so much that I even chose my wedding ring to match it...
This year for my birthday, I received a pendent from another friend...she's a few years older and works in church and I know that she loves me a lot from the way she answers my phone calls.,.when she realizes that it's me, her voice changes to a cooing and delighted tone..she's the friend who has really helped me a lot in my journey to wholeness and provided a lot of godly counsel and I'm really grateful to her...and the present....she put a lot of thought into it and said that she had considered a few items...books (too heavy for migration), food (eaten quickly and forgotten), cash (spent and easily forgotten too)..and finally decided to get a pendent with a pearl in the middle surrounded by diamonds and white gold.
I was really touched when I received it.
She asked me if I liked it and gave me the option of changing it for something else.
I told her that I did like it and that I will wear it and think of her often.
To be truly honest, it's not a design that I would have choosen for myself and I was surprised that I had refused the offer to change it...and I really did appreciate the gift very much...
And to my greatest joy, I think this means that God has finally sealed the leak in my love tank!! Now I can receive gifts without being worried about being disappointed and reply sincerely: "it's the thought that counts.."
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